Saturday, October 28, 2006
感覺、顏色、氣味
很抗拒Twins,對《一碌蔗》從來未感興趣。但CY誠意推薦此電影,說跟我們現在一個研究有些關連,亦把DVD借了給我。DVD在案頭放了良久,後來想這怎麼說也算是老闆的指示,我便乖乖地看了。:)
我不像好友E有一列最愛電影清單。但如果有的話,《一碌蔗》很可能會名列其中。後來知道《一碌蔗》原來是葉錦鴻編劇及導演。我亦很喜歡他之前兩部電影《半支煙》和《薰衣草》。他的電影很會營造感覺。但我認為他比王家衛高明。他營造和傳遞的是一種每一個人都曾體驗而能在電影裏重新體會的感覺。觀衆是多元化的,要營造大家都能體會的感覺,是技巧也是堅持。
(如果你還未看過《一碌蔗》,我建議你不要再讀下去)
《一碌蔗》的故事發生在70年代,電影營造了一種單純的感覺,是屬於那一個年代社會單純的感覺。當電話還未流行,靠筆墨談情,兩人的距離這麼遠卻是那麼近;當娛樂消遣還未複雜,生活圍繞一家電影院或一家武館,生命卻是由衷地受影響而變化。電影製作很有心思,一些細節如背小孩用的布帶、班馬牌木管原子筆、舊式士多和轉盤電話等都不著跡地提示那一個年代。很細膩,很可愛。
故事主線是四位少年的初戀。他們各自都有戲劇性的背景﹣﹣﹣﹣是真的「戲劇性」,因為都是老電影情節的「復刻版」。例如余文樂演的阿凡有一個殺父仇人,鍾欣桐的角色是一個嬰孩時被遺棄到寺院與世隔絕的少女。他們的初戀始於一次邂逅一個眼神一個背影,然後是一連串以電影情節編寫成的情書。兩段感情各有不同的起點、發展和結局,但都描寫出初戀既甜蜜單純,也迷惘無奈。
但我覺得初戀大抵只是《一碌蔗》的表面,底蘊卻是一種孤獨的失落(Incompleteness)。看罷心裏許久也不能放下。由《半支煙》裡的曾志偉和謝霆鋒,《薰衣草》的陳慧琳,到《一碌蔗》的余文樂。他們每一個人的生命都有一種缺失。余文樂的角色在殺父仇人的陰影活了二十年,最後以在仇人喪禮中的一場淚作結,卻不見得是完全的解脫。初戀情人一走了之或許是要完成這個角色的「戲劇性」,亦為整部電影增加了沈鬱的感覺。主角沒有因而歇斯底里,只是淡淡地承受。而這種缺失往往是非常孤獨的體會。雖然大部份人的經驗也相似,但也許沒有一個人能夠徹底明白另一個人。
但導演卻不是完全的悲觀。過幾部電影的主角身邊總有開心果,成為主角生命中的重要支持。而且電影的結局總是讓主角和觀眾有一點點欣慰。還記得陳慧琳在《薰衣草》最後的一個夢一場淚,還有《半支煙》裡舒淇美麗地出現。導演或許未致於完全被失落掩蓋,也可能不想要觀眾過份傷感。
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Real Frustration
Speechless. Frustrated. Helpless.
I have been programming a new experiment using the latest version of a computer program. The latest version was out only very recently. What one would expect is the unaviodable errors. But the error i encountered today is really frustrating.
After weeks of programming and experimenter-training, i finally started data collection today. The major part of this study is "serial reproduction" procedure. In a nutshell, participants read about some people then write their impression about these people. Then, what they wrote will be read by another participant, who will write about this impression. This reproduction goes on for a few rounds. With this procedure, we will be able to observe how information is actually modified through communication. I use the computer program to record all the writings.
The specific experimental procedure requires two undergrad experimenters dealing one participant at a time at 20-min intervals. That means, with the work of two experimenters, we are able to collect 3 data points in an hour. Not to mention the set up time. Because of time constraint, i can only have 8 data point collected each day. You can see how "desperate" I am.
Here comes the ever-true Murphy's Law
After hours of experiment sessions, i opened one of the data files, which is supposed to contain the writing and responses to other questions. Your guess is correct! There is no writing recorded in the data file!! I opened another data file, there is no writing there neither. None of the datafiles has the writing part in it.
I know, that's my fault. I had a number of trial runs before. They were fine. Just two days ago i decided to use another function that times the writing better. Who would know that by checking a little box in addition to "what is already okay" would make it "not okay"? There is something wrong with the function--checking the function refrains recording of response. Even though the function has nothing to do with data recording. That's my fault: i take for granted that things will operate the way it is supposed to.
My students were frustrated. I was not, at least at that time. I know Murphy's Law. I knew that something will go wrong. My experience of conducting experiments always have something wrong. I actually comforted my students that these are normal. But now, after a few hours, when i am trying to fix the problem, i cannot help but feel the huge frustration inside.
On the other hand, my other boss just cannot let me have a break from her work. That's the difference between a boss and a grad student. When a boss has something emergent (a paper to revise and resubmit, an experiment to wrap up, or something about a conference), a boss can always slack off on other projects. A grad student just does not have anything qualified as emergent.
I have been programming a new experiment using the latest version of a computer program. The latest version was out only very recently. What one would expect is the unaviodable errors. But the error i encountered today is really frustrating.
After weeks of programming and experimenter-training, i finally started data collection today. The major part of this study is "serial reproduction" procedure. In a nutshell, participants read about some people then write their impression about these people. Then, what they wrote will be read by another participant, who will write about this impression. This reproduction goes on for a few rounds. With this procedure, we will be able to observe how information is actually modified through communication. I use the computer program to record all the writings.
The specific experimental procedure requires two undergrad experimenters dealing one participant at a time at 20-min intervals. That means, with the work of two experimenters, we are able to collect 3 data points in an hour. Not to mention the set up time. Because of time constraint, i can only have 8 data point collected each day. You can see how "desperate" I am.
Here comes the ever-true Murphy's Law
After hours of experiment sessions, i opened one of the data files, which is supposed to contain the writing and responses to other questions. Your guess is correct! There is no writing recorded in the data file!! I opened another data file, there is no writing there neither. None of the datafiles has the writing part in it.
I know, that's my fault. I had a number of trial runs before. They were fine. Just two days ago i decided to use another function that times the writing better. Who would know that by checking a little box in addition to "what is already okay" would make it "not okay"? There is something wrong with the function--checking the function refrains recording of response. Even though the function has nothing to do with data recording. That's my fault: i take for granted that things will operate the way it is supposed to.
My students were frustrated. I was not, at least at that time. I know Murphy's Law. I knew that something will go wrong. My experience of conducting experiments always have something wrong. I actually comforted my students that these are normal. But now, after a few hours, when i am trying to fix the problem, i cannot help but feel the huge frustration inside.
On the other hand, my other boss just cannot let me have a break from her work. That's the difference between a boss and a grad student. When a boss has something emergent (a paper to revise and resubmit, an experiment to wrap up, or something about a conference), a boss can always slack off on other projects. A grad student just does not have anything qualified as emergent.
Monday, October 23, 2006
工作麻醉
原來工作真的可以麻醉神經。如果思緒不定,甚至是為明日以致將來憂慮,全心投入做一件能集中精神的事原來可以令頭腦不用埋在煩惱中。事後至少有一點兒滿足感,把憂鬱的情緒壓下去。
當然,在消沉時抖擻精神工作是一項極大的挑戰。今天呆了一整天到晚上9.30才開始工作。很久也沒有那樣消沉了。
當然,在消沉時抖擻精神工作是一項極大的挑戰。今天呆了一整天到晚上9.30才開始工作。很久也沒有那樣消沉了。
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